mangled, is an understatement

i have nobody left, and to be honest.
i think this is what ive wanted all along

you're both hearless, more heartless then anybody i could ever imagine.
you're supposed to be my best friend, and you fucked it.
shitty.

fuck me.

btw i got my license :)

if you want this money, then ya gotta be a bad bitch

i miss my mommy

i really cant do this anymore

leave it to me to mess everything up.

i just came back from south carolina with nikki and my family.
i had legit the best time, just spending time away from anything that makes me mad. besides my nephew of course.

i hungout with frank yesterday.
he's leaving for the dominican for 10 days.
oh, trust me. our goodbye was plenty fine.
im an idiot for that, but hey let me live.

hopefully have my license soon :(
hopefully have a job soon :(

need my life back together, asap.

fuck it, i dont give a shit, ill clean the fucking house with it.

i could tell you about how miserable ive been.
because, i can't trust anyone.
because, one of my best friends is hooking up with the boy i wasted the last seven months on.
because, i can NEVER win.

but that would all be childish because.
the most important women in my life.
My Mother, has been diagnosed with Stage 3/4 Cancer.
and that's all i can think about lately.

i got my wisdom teeth out the other day.
so i've been walking around a drugged mess.
hanging out almost everynight.
my friends are my friends, and i dont plan on goin no wherez.

Yesterday was my biiiiirthday : )
17, holla at me!

Frank took me to dinner, it was really nice.

i'm really sick of the same thing over. and over. and over. again.
it's annoying, i need a boyfriend, or something to keep me occupied.

+i'm over it.
++ i REALLY need a fucking job.

FUCK.

it's 2am and im sitting in a hotel in south carolina.
to most people this would be next to perfect.
not me, to most people being 600 miles from there home, and crappy highschool would be the life.
not me, you can take me a million miles away from all my problems.
but ill still find a way to upset myself.
FUCK.

i've seen better days

but seriously, you will never be another *******. in no way, shape, or form. you have respect for yourself, you are beautiful, you're my best friend. you're not some shitty fucking philly trash bitch who has no respect for herself at all. you'll never be like her in his eyes. and i know that. that wont happen.

-Lindsey Marie DeLuca.
My Best Fucking Friends, Through Everything.

hell yeah, ill be yo wingman

when you hear sirens, be silent.
give me a reason, not to ignore them

i have a 19% in english class, way to go erin.